Who am I

So, as one starts a blog, there's the obligatory introduction post. Hi! I'm a 25-year-old mother of twins, with another one on the way, and I play WoW. There, the end.

Just kidding.

Who I used to be
I'm one of those people who likes to be constantly busy. In high school, I was an A student, had a boyfriend, did 3 varsity sports, was in the marching band, participated in like 3 different clubs or something, active in my church, etc. etc. College was similar. I graduated with 2 majors and a minor in 2004, and I thought I was going to go on to get a PhD.

Then I got pregnant with twins.

Hollywood makes it seem like twins are really roxxor and all fun all the time. Well, news flash - it's a difficult road from the time you conceive. Sick all the time, preterm labor, bedrest - the whole nine yards. And then they were BORN! Dealing with 2 is difficult, and that difficulty was compounded by postpartum depression and other weird effects that pregnancy had on my brain. It's really hard to pursue graduate work when you can't stop thinking about suicide, or when you can't concentrate enough to read more than a page or two at a time, let alone care for two infants.

So, no more school for me. And let me tell you, daycare is really expensive, particularly for two infants. I would have been paying more for child care than I would be earning - so, now, I am a stay at home mom. Which... is kind of weird. I never was one of those girls who was totally looking forward to being a domestic goddess. Housework makes me panic attack. But I'm getting better. Sort of.

Why I play WoW

Or, why all this stuff matters. WoW has been my panacea through all this, even up to now, when my twins are almost 3 years old. Maybe it's not the most healthy way to meet my emotional needs... but in light of the financial or temporal obligations that other options would carry, I think it's not really all that bad. But seriously, check it out:

• WoW is my social outlet. I've always been a social creature and being home all day long with a couple munchkins who still can't talk is kind of maddening to me. But I can log on WoW and not even DO anything, and my social needs are fulfilled.
• WoW fills my need to be involved in lots of stuff. Yeah, remember what I described about high school and college? Just kicking it here at home drives me nuts. But in game, I'm a raid leader, I'm a guild leader, and I have plenty to do if I want it.
• WoW gives me a sense of accomplishment. Yeah, naysayers might be all, "It's FAKE!" But look, as a housewife, I'm cleaning the same floors every day. I do load after load of laundry and it never gets done. It feels really demoralizing to see something I just got done be UNdone by wild toddlers. But in WoW, I go in, I kick some butt, and once I finish a quest, it's never going to be undone.
• WoW's a stress reliever. When the kids have been making me nuts all morning, I can put them down for a nap and then go light things on fire.

And so on. There are probably a dozen more examples of why I play, but that's good for now.